Moments of 2010

I was trying to write my Christmas and New Year moments almost a month ago but I just decided to stop. I needed to free my emotions and let "Niagara" Falls flow. Then this idea crossed in my mind. I don't want to use the alike apps for writing is much more personalized. And sorry if it took longer than what I had expected.

run...away, daughter

JANUARY

*The first day of 2010 was so dramatic and full of raged.

*On 5th day, my interview for my US visa was scheduled, and I got the result before the end of the day.

*On the same day, I brought mama to the biggest mall in the Philippines, the Mall of Asia (MOA).

*After few days, I had a hard time walking but was determined to ignore the pain.

*I received my visa packet between third and last week of the month.

*We spent the rest of the month with debates, arguments, awful conversations, and disgusting runaway scenes.

FEBRUARY

me and mom

*My husband arrived at the first week of the month. All of us were happy, except one person.

*The first two weeks were so tiring and busy, tried to look for a new place where my mother can stay.

*On our first wedding anniversary, Andrew surprised me with flowers.

*Two or three nights before our departure, my husband's phone was stolen by a group of pickpocketers.

*February 15th, everyone was emotional but nobody tried to cry (in front of me, at least).

*On the same date, we arrived in Eugene. Ben was the first person I met, for he picked us up.

*I spent the next few days meeting my in-laws and Andrew's friends and co-workers.

*Experienced the Asian Festival.

dad and Jen

MARCH

*Met dad :)

*Most of the days of this month were spent in walking and exploring the streets, parks, and sceneries nearby my house.

*Some of these times were with my in-laws, and the rest, were spent alone with me, myself and I.

*I still don't have my own phone so I always borrow my husband's phone whenever I walk.

*I used the GPS (for the car) once but it was big and I felt awkward for using it. It gave a creepy feeling that there's someone watching and laughing at me.

*On 7th day (thanks to Facebook Photos), we drove Ben to the PDX airport for his business trip to Buenos Aires.

*We ate lunch in McDonalds then went straight to Oregon Museum of Science and Industry (OMSI).

*We had so much fun and I so wished that I can bring my family there, too, specially my nephews. For OMSI is such informative and fun establishment.

*I was amazed with the submarine, though I broke a simple law : No heels. No one noticed though or perhaps the marines had just ignored it and let me passed for they believed that I can handle myself. I did fine but there were instances which I needed to took it off so I won't trip myself in their tiny iron and metal stairs. We only saw the signage for that when we're about to leave the facility. :) 

*For more proof that I really had fun, feel free to click this link Yehlen's OMSI Adventure It's one of my photo albums in Facebook.

*We didn't stayed that long for driving at night isn't fun for Andrew.

*We had dinner in Claim Jumper in Tualatin. I can't remember what we had but sure it was so tasty and made my stomach happy.

*The next day, I started not to feel well. My stomach was so upset and I kinda blamed what I had ate the day before.

*Few days passed, and still I'm sick and no sign of getting well soon. I started blaming the very cold weather. Then one night, a realization knocked me.

*Night of March 12th, the pregnancy test kits confirmed our thoughts.

*We hadn't talked that night for I wasn't sure what to feel specially that we kinda talked about it before. It's not that it's not in our plan but the timing was kinda... ehh

*The next night, we had talked and fixed any weird feelings we had.

*Both of our families and friends were happy for us.

*It was my first time to be pregnant and most of the time that I'm awake, I always eat and drooly.

*Talking for me was so hard, specially when I needed to call an OB-GYNE to schedule my check-up.

*There were nights that I slept in the couch for every time that my husband moves, it made me felt dizzy. And I always sleep with a hand towel placed at my chin and chest, and I will wake up feeling and smelling nasty.

*I tried not to look or remember Filipino foods specially those foods which were hard to find here in Eugene.

chocolates to make me feel better

APRIL

*I spent alone in the house during 1st and 2nd week of the month, for Andrew went to Buenos Aires, Argentina.

*One day, I saw an email which made me burst in anger. He left his phone with me, for I still don't have my own phone. But as usual, he knows how to melt my heart.

*Mom did visit me and gave me a nice haircut. for I wasn't sure if I'd be able to stay for at least a minute inside a salon.

*April 6, I went to DQ, with my feet as means of transportation. While walking back, a teenager from Shelton High School approach and asked me if he can have a hug. I am not sure if he was drunk or just being so friendly. He asked me thrice but I was happy he didn't followed me. But inside my head, I was freaking out.

*She did treat me too for some grocery shopping, and when we were in the Market of Choice, she kept seeing a long hair in me and cut it :)

*My sis-in-law was supportive, as well. She bought me some foods which I need for I had already consumed what my husband and my mother-in-law bought for me. 

*I kept waking up at wee hours and very hungry.

*April 10th, I called Andrew at his hotel in Buenos Aires. I got annoyed on the first receptionist who picked up my call. He just cut me out without telling me to call or try again for he can't understand me or at least say that it's a bad reception. I was having a hard time talking for I keep drooling that time. On my 2nd attempt, it was successful and my husband was kinda surprised to hear my voice :) It was only a short talk but it made us felt good.

*Ben and his sister, Caralee, visited me for a few minutes, too. We let her to borrow the car for a while, for I was scared that someone might steal it in our yard.

*Then, Andrew came back two or three days before my scheduled check-up in my OB-GYNE. I prepared a spaghetti for him but he didnt ate it for he was full and besides I hadn't forced him. It was so sweeeet.

*I repeated the reason why I got mad on him and made sure that it was really nothing, and he succeeded in convincing me. :)

*On the 20th day, I had my check-up. Andrew and I were so happy to meet my OB-GYNE... and she just gave us a trembling news :( I am not pregnant anymore. She said that I'm in the process of miscarriage already.

*I was smiling at her as she talk then suddenly I asked myself if I'm hearing the right words or I'm not understanding her very well as my tears started to run all over my cheeks.

*She gave us time to fix ourselves after the few tests she had done. She gave us options and said what she thinks is much better thing to do but she did said that there's nothing wrong in me. It just happens.

*Andrew and I both decided to have a surgery (I don't need to remember what it is called), to prevent any problems for future pregnancy again.
*I kept holding on and asking myself the question "What if she's wrong?" I don't ever want to lose my baby! As I wait for the day of my surgery/operation, I kept holding to the thought that I'm having my baby and what what she said was totally a lie. It was really hard for me. I know it was hard for my husband, too. 

*Then that day came. I started bleeding as what she expected, but still I'm thinking that what she said was a lie. We hadn't stayed long in McKenzie Surgery Center. 

* That night, something triggered my depression which almost made our marriage be in a critical situation.

*But I'm glad we did managed to talk before the end of the month.

let our prayers be heard

MAY

*We tried to have our lives be back to normal and supporting each other, specially when it comes to emotions.

*My family in PH told me a bad news regarding to my father.

*And that bad news became terrible and was heart-breaking, too.

*The thought of going back to PH stayed in my head but I decided to just stay here in Eugene.

*My father passed a week after his birthday.

*We looked for Catholic churches where I can send my prayers for him but I just decided to do it in our yard.

*I wanted to see him for the last time but I thought staying here is better. For I don't want my mother to feel the loneliness of seeing me leaving again.

*I met Heather, Liam, and Michael as I grieve.

*I still have nightmares/dreams of my father.

my iPhone

JUNE

*More of:

     + Parks

     + Streets

     + Walks

     + Malls

     + Picture-taking

*June 22nd, I got my own iPhone :)

*I am not sure when did I started planting but sure it's one of the things which made me felt occupied for this month.

lovers at the beach

JULY

*My first 4th of July... I was sick. I missed most of the fireworks.

*More farmville in my backyard ;)

*We went to Florence/Newport to see the beach. I posted a blog about it before.

*On third week, I experienced and been a part of Oregon Country Fair 

*I was amazed by its own beauty.

*Experienced the Eugene Saturday Market.

waiting for Macy's 

AUGUST

*The thought of looking for a job was been considered.

*I preferred to check online and I did some walk-in questions or inquiries.

*Passed my resumes to some companies and organizations. I did received some replies from craigslist.com but only spams/scams.

*I did received replies too from decent employers but only to tell me that someone was more qualified.

*I had an interview from Macy's which I posted before.

*I started cross-stitching again and learned the basic of crochet.

3 cubes cake

SEPTEMBER

*My birthday was in the first week and we had fun.

*I cooked something for my husband and in-laws.

*After two or three days, I received a call from Victoria's Secret and telling me about my training or orientation day.

*I felt so happy, my wish came true.

*On my orientation day, I was late for I took a bus and waited in the wrong spot.

*But it still went pretty fine :)

*Mom gave me her belated presents and I felt so exhausted from shopping!

amazon is both evil and good :)

OCTOBER

*October 4th, I received my first order in amazon - a book  full of cross stitch charts.

*I finished my first sewing project - pillowcase. Mom gave me her wonderful sewing machine and my mother and sis drooled!

*I had my first payroll and I was so happy to buy my husband a cake for his birthday.

*The weather was really cold so I stopped walking for a while.

frozen beauty

NOVEMBER

*We celebrated Dad's birthday in BJs but I kinda ended up in a bad mood. I'm sorry Dad, blame your evil son! hahaha

*Thanksgiving :)

*Spent it with Carol, Crystal, and Crystal's friends.

*Carol showed me one of her favorite movies, which is my favorite now too, The Red Violin

*I love working in Victoria's Secret as a ghost in the stockroom ;)

*November 24th, I had my first encounter with the snow!

New Year's feast

DECEMBER

*Schedules were hectic but I was happy.

*I sent a mom a birthday card and a cross-stitch project, too.

*Seen Judy and Royal again in WoW Hall.

*We celebrated Christmas with Gerhart/Poole's families :)

*Our house had some changes: paintings, new front door, new faucet in the kitchen, new vanity mirror, new bathroom sink, new shower faucet, and new carpet.

*I had able to buy Wii as my present for my husband.

*My rings were been resized :)

*Andrew bought me a nice necklace with a key as pendant.

*We welcomed New Year with Jen :)

***ETC...***

+ exchanged letters with Aunt Louise

+ saw my old friends in facebook :)

+ volunteered for Yujin Gakuen school

+ I'd post something new here once I remembered more :)